Saturday, May 19, 2012

Open Mic 05/17/12

     I played at Biagio's 277 Park Ave., Worcester.  I performed 3 Johhny cash tunes;  I still miss someone, Cry, Cry, Cry , Long Black Veil.  I also played  Take these Chains from Heart, I don't care if tomorrow never comes (both by Hank Williams), The Crystal Ship, Have you ever seen the Rain, and rounded it out with The Stones' Dead Flowers.  I've been playing Bill McCarthy's Open Mic Nights for about a year now. Bill  manages  open mic nights with  the efficiency of a successful Baseball manager.  Bill's very encouraging and very supportive.  I remember the first night I played I totally botched "I walk the Line", he just shrugged and stated that it's a hard song with all those key changes.  He gave me a perplexed look when I told him that I'd only picked up a guitar a few times in the last 17 years.  I'm playing next thursday at 1930 at the same location.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

My Darkness. How good and evil battle for my soul on a daily basis.

I fight the darkness,everyday.  I suffer from depression ever since I was a pre-teen. I've been to therapists, psychologists and taken medication.  But the darkness never fully leaves.  When the darkness envelops me, I'm unbearable.  I argue for no reason, I yell and scream, I've even broken things and thrown things.  But worse than that the darkness has been responsible for the near total collapse of my marriage.  And when my dream girl couldn't take it any longer and didn't want to experience a nasty custody battle, she resorted to things in order to survive.  These "things" have broken my heart and  I have had trouble coping.  Anger and resentment aren't the answers they only feed the darkness.