Open Mic 05/17/12

     I played at Biagio's 277 Park Ave., Worcester.  I performed 3 Johhny cash tunes;  I still miss someone, Cry, Cry, Cry , Long Black Veil.  I also played  Take these Chains from Heart, I don't care if tomorrow never comes (both by Hank Williams), The Crystal Ship, Have you ever seen the Rain, and rounded it out with The Stones' Dead Flowers.  I've been playing Bill McCarthy's Open Mic Nights for about a year now. Bill  manages  open mic nights with  the efficiency of a successful Baseball manager.  Bill's very encouraging and very supportive.  I remember the first night I played I totally botched "I walk the Line", he just shrugged and stated that it's a hard song with all those key changes.  He gave me a perplexed look when I told him that I'd only picked up a guitar a few times in the last 17 years.  I'm playing next thursday at 1930 at the same location.

My Darkness. How good and evil battle for my soul on a daily basis.

I fight the darkness,everyday.  I suffer from depression ever since I was a pre-teen. I've been to therapists, psychologists and taken medication.  But the darkness never fully leaves.  When the darkness envelops me, I'm unbearable.  I argue for no reason, I yell and scream, I've even broken things and thrown things.  But worse than that the darkness has been responsible for the near total collapse of my marriage.  And when my dream girl couldn't take it any longer and didn't want to experience a nasty custody battle, she resorted to things in order to survive.  These "things" have broken my heart and  I have had trouble coping.  Anger and resentment aren't the answers they only feed the darkness.

BLUE

Leann Rimes recorded this record when she was 11. Unbelievable, I never knew that. What a great voice and a great talent.LeAnn Rimes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD?

Do you believe in God? That's the question that the band flyleaf posed in their song "Cassie". The song was inspired by the senseless murder of cassie bernall, a victim of the Columbine tragedy. All of us go about everyday hiding in our own little protective worlds. We never realize how we affect those around us either in a negative,careless way or if we are lucky the opposite. I am fortunate that I awoke from "my fog" before it was too late, I almost lost my wife. But thanks to God, I've turned it around and our relationship is very strong and moving forward. And so it is with the combined tragedies of Cassie Bernall and rachel scott,another Columbine victim, that we can learn much. After losing my job of 11 years and the mess I had made of my marriage, no one can tell me that God hasn't been pushing me onto the correct path. I took so much for granted, but that is no longer the story! Awake each and everyday, embrace the life that you've been given don't fret over what should or what shouldn't be, there are those whom are much worse off.

EASTER

HAPPY EASTER!!!

ST.PATRICK'S DAY

HOUSE-HUSBAND

I know its a stain on my masculinity, but I've been out of a work since Xmas. And face it, my wife's been carrying the load all these years, i can learn to do it. Remember that movie Michael Keaton made in the 80's, Mr.Mom, well that's what I've become. I really appreciate all the hard work my wife does. I'm getting a first hand view of it. Why I've even learned to cook, nothin' that anyone would be dyin' to try.
I made pancakes this mornin', how delicious. My little princess said they were good, dad. The only thing i can't deal with is after about 4 days, I start gettin' "cabin fever". And when that happens I get "a fevah". More about that another time.